Bittersweet?

YAY malcolm is happy, no wait. ESTATIC =) cuz malcolm attended a party ytd nite which was really really fun, funnie, and he made many new frens =D. he would like to say a big THANKEW to the person hu organised it =) *wide smile* and promises to get the person a nice prezzie on tt person's bdae!

den again, malcolm is not so happy cuz he's confused. cuz he doesnt know what to do. he tries so hard n pushes himself to do things he's never done before, but he does not gain any ground. so he's SAD, feeling rather poignant =(. and bewildered too. cuz there are somethings that are happening to him but not involving the kind of situation that he likes. so yea. its rather confusing and puts him a really deep doubt about prospects of life. and the more he thinks about it, the more puzzling it gets. maybe he should just take things in his stride n stop thinking bout the baffling stuff and juz concentrate on rearing his <><.